birks. heartfelt.

i am influence to get another part of birks. and i am rather broke. great. i think i need financial analyst. sigh. but birks are so pretty and comfortable, so it is not a sin to get another one right? okay. i am trying to convince myself.

portugal lost last night. but they played rather well i think. though they deserve to be on the losing side cos france was amazing. the world cup prove that old people still have the cutting edge, think zidane, henry. they are not young anymore. anyone realise that the younger poeple cannot make it this time. fiery temper, stamping on people's precious part, shoving and pushing. like all the nonsense and stuffs.

this is random. thanks for all the nice things that u have let me see. and all the memories. but i think, its enough. u wont be reading this i guess, but if u do, we shall see what happens and i'll do something that i always wanted, always have to. although i will feel rather miserable, but i should have stop this crap even before it happens. u always make me confuse and u never seem to try to do anything. i have enough of thinking of excuses for myself. it is so impossible. or rather, i have been deceiving myself for too long a time. maybe its time to stop unless something happens. i am happy now. please dont destroy it. stop coming back when u want to. its not helping.

as for you, thanks for being so nice to me and tolerated me since forever. though i always say i hate you. but u know i dont mean it. you rock my life, to a certain extend. now, wipe that smile off ur face. much love :)